Thursday, May 20, 2010

Angry and I don't know why.

I am so angry lately. I don't know why. I have asked God to show me what's bothering me, but until that revelation I just don't know what to do with myself. Sometimes I think I may still have some post partum issues lingering around — like maybe it's just hormonal. Then some of me thinks it being married (sorry babe!). I dunno. Do women have to be in a bad mood all the time just because they are married? I think some of it is still being at home with my folks and not having a place to ourselves yet; I'm sure that's a lot of it. I know Robert is tired of dealing with it, but no more than I am. I know it makes me a difficult person to live with because I don't even like me. I'm just not sure how to be angry but sin not. I drop F-bombs like it was nothing these days. I yell a lot. I hardly recognize myself. YaYa the Mexican Nanny is quickly becoming YaYa the angry lady who lives down the hall. God I just need some help coping with all that is going on in my life right now. Y'all pray for my strength! ... Whoever out there is reading.

My Mother's Day Column

My Mother's Day column as published in The Daily Herald, Sunday, May 9, 2010.